Thrown in the deep end

Life. It’s complicated. It’s emotional. It’s physical. It’s real. It’s surreal. It’s fun. It’s harsh. It’s life.

Once again, thrown in the deep end. No ones fault and nothing that could be done. This is what happens, and you either sink or swim. Myself, I’m a swimmer. I’m not the best swimmer, but I can swim. It’s important to keep this silly metaphor in my head at all times because without it I would definitely drown. Yesterday I something happened that was the one thing I honestly didn’t want to happen out of everything in the entire world. I can’t talk about it directly, but it’s irrationally shattered my world. I know that it may even be a good thing, and I know that actually, I’d rather it be this way if it’s good for the other person in speaking. I care about them so much, I will happily abide to said situation if that’s what’s best for them. When you love someone that much, you will do what’s best for them, regardless of how it makes you feel. I have to keep this in mind, because it’s all I’ve got. I’ll keep focusing on myself, trying to get better. Maybe go back to tafe, keep on keeping on as they say. It’s always tough, but I’ll survive. I have actually been doing quite well recently. I’ve managed to play some games, and actually enjoy them. That’s actually quite a lot of progress for me. I’ve seen my friends, and been on teamspeak and talked to them since. All good progress and good news. I have to not worry about things that aren’t under my control, and hope that life eventually rewards me for my patience, perseverance, strength and optimism.

I hope it’ll come back. I hope that what’s currently on hold, will return when the time is right. I wish with all my power that things work out. I still believe it was meant to be. I still believe it will be what it was once more. I apologize for the vagueness, but It’s not fair for me to reveal what i’m talking about. People close to me may know, while others can take a guess.

Sometimes it really feels like life likes to kick you when you’re down, but the trick is to realize that no matter how hard that kick feels, you can get back up. You can get back on your feet, and continue walking the path of destiny. You are only defeated when you give up, and giving up is always an option but never the answer.

The future is the answer, and what you choose to do with yourself in the present is the question.


Harrison aka Kinkymuffin


Published by: Kinkymuffin

I've been through a lot, like many others before me, and many more to come. Drug addiction is no joke. It's a war that never ends. I've learned to cope with my addiction by writing truthfully about it. If it can help just one person, then it was worth it.

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